
That is the question I ask myself nightly. I spoke too soon when I was telling my friend that my girls were doing great sleeping in their own beds and I'm sleeping. The last few nights I just couldn't wait for the sun to come up. At 11 and 12 and 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 5. Getting back to sleep is no easy feat for me. I just pray for the
patience to carry on and make it until it's time to
really get up.
Is it just me or does anyone else have this problem? If is not Lucy it's Ellie. If it's not Ellie is Lucy. Recently the thought of going to bed gives me
anxiety. Getting comfortable and relaxing isn't nice anymore. I know I will be awaken by, "mommy, I want hold your hand", "mommy, I want to sleep in your bed", WAHHHHHHHHHHH!", "WAHHHHHHHH",WAHHHHHHHH", or "mommy, I have a go pee pee". All legitimate excuses, but man it sure can take a toll on you during the day. Oh and get this, if I'm not up with them I'm usually
dreaming that I am, yes
dreaming, about
getting up in the middle of the night with them. Sucks, I know!
Will I ever get time to myself, will I ever get to take a shower by myself, will I ever get to go to the store without hearing, "I want, I want" (oh, wait that's me), will I ever get to do my exercise video without having someone sitting on my lap, will I ever get to eat a meal is peace while it's hot, will I ever sleep again? I know there will come a day when they
wont want me and I'll
stay awake anyway and check on them and worry about them and fret over them, and and and...
How's your day going?